Yesterday I was sitting at work eating a snack from the vending machine, my most recent failed attempt to launch The Young Napoleon Project not too far in the rearview mirror, wondering yet again why I couldn’t stick with it. Why I couldn’t make it work. Just another attempt, self-sabotaged by some small mistake that I blew way out of proportion, causing me to hit the reset button yet again.
It’s the same old story, over and over again for the last decade. Launch the project, make some good progress, have an imperfect day, convince myself I can do better, then start over again. When in reality, if I could just push through the imperfection and the small mistakes, I might actually realize the dream.
So what is the dream?
The dream is to create a project that encapsulates every aspect of my life and build a structure that allows me to achieve my goals of becoming healthier, more organized, financially secure, and a self-published author, all while being the best husband and father I can be.
But this isn’t about disappearing and trying to do this on my own. It’s about holding myself accountable and documenting the journey, not only to prove to myself that I can actually achieve this dream, but maybe to show others they can pursue theirs too.
This project isn’t about becoming an overnight success. It’s not about turning into some kind of productivity robot. It’s about showing up and doing the work. It’s about continuing after setbacks instead of restarting because of them. It’s about being intentional with my time while still being present with my family. It’s about believing in myself one more time as I start over yet again.
I don’t know if this will be the last time I ever restart this project. I hope it is.
What I do know is that I’m tired of quitting on myself every time things stop being perfect. So this time, no matter how long it takes, I’m staying in the fight.
Let’s try again.
The Young Napoleon Project 